Reminiscing on the way darling C warmed my cold hands and shared his body warmth with me when I was so cold..

Now, more than ever I yearn for a pair of strong and steady, warm arms around me. Mayhaps now, for the love I couldn’t give him, in honour of him, I open up and learn to stop being selfish, going down the path of the irredeemable. The people who keep their hearts locked in impenetrable fortresses, to the extent of damnation.

This night really is turning out to be bittersweet.